Having a nice, lazy Saturday thus far... slept in till 8. . . lounged around, drank a couple cups of coffee, ate a breakfast of Hemp toast, slathered with Trader Joe's peanut butter (thanks Mom for sending me a jar!) and a sliced banana. Watched a little bit of the news...then turned it off, the news quickly depresses me. Got my butt in gear and did my workout, slacked yesterday and didn't do it...so it hurt extra today...karma...dangit. Took a long, hot shower...put on an old pair of jeans and t-shirt that actually are starting to fit me better! Went down to the mailbox to drop our rent check in the mail...but the mail man came early today..and the September issue of Bon Appetit was in our box..that was a nice surprise, sure wasn't expecting them to send me the back issues since I signed up in September...one of the best $3 I've ever spent, I do believe. Had a simple lunch of leftover brown rice & pine nuts, topped with some yum sauce (I do think I'll be putting that on everything from now on....) and now....working on a couple mixes for some precious people in my life....
sometimes making mixes can be overwhelming, 20.5 days worth of music on my iTunes, it can be hard to canvass the entire music library...So quite often, I put it on shuffle and wait for the inspiration to kick in....And actually, my iTunes (and my iPod in the car) stay on shuffle at least 80% of the time, a good way to hear music I haven't heard in a while...
so, here's what my iTunes has played the past 10 songs...with maybe my favorite line or two....
#1 Ryan Adams "You Will Always Be The Same"
-------- Go on little girl, feet twirl, go and make him smile-------
#2 Minus the Bear "Dr. L'ling"
#3 AU4 "Everything's Moving"
#4 Phil Wickham "Holy, Holy, Holy"
#5 M.I.A. "World Town"
-------Every wall you build I'll knock it down to the floor--------
#6 The Beatles "Hey Jude"
------Remember to let her into your heart, then you can start to make it better------
#7 Fionn Regan "Bunker or Basement"
#8 Wilco "Handshake Drugs"
#9 Au Revoir Simone "Shadows"
-------I'm moving on, I hope you're coming with me. Cause I'm not strong without you------
#10 Karate "First Release"
-------When I'm alone, I want to feel like one kid getting stoned, only to keep things a little more clear, just to be able to hold on to a simple idea. And when I'm with you, I want to notice everything as we do, to catch every bit bit of blur, squint, chill, and red, from sand dunes, San Soliel, and sunsets------
loves-a.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
10.28.10
I can't believe how windy it is outside right now....I feel like I'm over on the Coast..or maybe it's that I wish I was! Either way, I think winter is definitely settling in up here in Idaho, and it won't be too long before I either discover I really DO love the cold or if that's just something I've always said because I hated the heat in Redding.
So this time next week, Jeremy will be home!! Oh man, I seriously cannot wait, my life just doesn't seem complete when he's not by my side. I feel like such a different person, like I'm not myself unless he's around. I haven't decided if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but I take delight in knowing that we must complement each other well. The other night he text me the sweetest thing about he couldn't wait to get home, so he could be a better husband to me...doing the dishes, cleaning the house, drawing me a bubble bath..just made my heart SO full. I've definitely learned to miss him, all over again, and I think this is the most I've ever missed him in my life.
Come the end of January, it will be Jeremy's turn to learn to miss me (not that he doesn't miss me while he's out on the road...but I mean, him being home and missing me:)... Bought my plane ticket the other day to fly out to California the end of January for 9 days. I am SO excited about this trip for many reasons...
#1 It will be my first trip w/o Jeremy since we've been married (minus a couple weekend getaways with my sister and mom)
#2 It will be my first time flying by myself...haha, not so scary since it's only a 45 minute flight!
#3 I will get to spend 9 days with my mom--I am SO looking forward to this...because my mom is amazing...
#4 I'll get to see some of my favorite people on this trip
#5 I'll get to go to two of my favorite places...the northern California coast and Ashland, Or.
and I'm sure there are many more..but it's going to be great..I'm flying into Reno where my parents will pick me up..and I'm sure we'll spend a couple of days there..then drive down to Redding and see my sister and Erich..maybe spend a night or two there..drive over to the Coast, see Jeff & Melani for a day or two..drive up the coast and cut over to Ashland...oh man, it's going to be amazing.. I'm already praying that the weather will cooperate for us taking a road trip :)
So anyway...guess I should get myself ready for work. loves you all.
loves-a.
So this time next week, Jeremy will be home!! Oh man, I seriously cannot wait, my life just doesn't seem complete when he's not by my side. I feel like such a different person, like I'm not myself unless he's around. I haven't decided if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but I take delight in knowing that we must complement each other well. The other night he text me the sweetest thing about he couldn't wait to get home, so he could be a better husband to me...doing the dishes, cleaning the house, drawing me a bubble bath..just made my heart SO full. I've definitely learned to miss him, all over again, and I think this is the most I've ever missed him in my life.
Come the end of January, it will be Jeremy's turn to learn to miss me (not that he doesn't miss me while he's out on the road...but I mean, him being home and missing me:)... Bought my plane ticket the other day to fly out to California the end of January for 9 days. I am SO excited about this trip for many reasons...
#1 It will be my first trip w/o Jeremy since we've been married (minus a couple weekend getaways with my sister and mom)
#2 It will be my first time flying by myself...haha, not so scary since it's only a 45 minute flight!
#3 I will get to spend 9 days with my mom--I am SO looking forward to this...because my mom is amazing...
#4 I'll get to see some of my favorite people on this trip
#5 I'll get to go to two of my favorite places...the northern California coast and Ashland, Or.
and I'm sure there are many more..but it's going to be great..I'm flying into Reno where my parents will pick me up..and I'm sure we'll spend a couple of days there..then drive down to Redding and see my sister and Erich..maybe spend a night or two there..drive over to the Coast, see Jeff & Melani for a day or two..drive up the coast and cut over to Ashland...oh man, it's going to be amazing.. I'm already praying that the weather will cooperate for us taking a road trip :)
So anyway...guess I should get myself ready for work. loves you all.
loves-a.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
10.24.10
it's all rainy and windy outside....the rain is splattering against the windows and the wind is howling around my apartment. It's quite lovely, actually. This kind of weather makes me feel creative, like I could sit inside and make mix cd's all day long for my friends, and make great collages for the cases. My first thought this morning, though, when I looked out the windows (I love to watch the rain fall...) was "I wish Evan and Nancy could come over for dinner..." Guess I'm missing me some Persons this morning.
Been thinking about people in my life that I feel like I've never had as much time with as I wanted....
Evan and Nancy
Jordan and Bethany
Marty and Becky
Jeff and Melani
Mel and Tysen
Nina and Kenny
Jordan C.
those are the people back "home" that have really been on my mind & in my heart lately... It's just strange that all these people, I haven't spent much of life with (except for a couple of you :)... yet, I feel the biggest connection to them, more than any friends I've ever had. Maybe it's the whole "you always want what you can't have" thing.... well, regardless, I miss them and wish they could all come over for dinner tonight.
*on a side note*
today is the last day of the Master Cleanse for me! SO excited to be able to cook and eat again. I feel good though, I must say, better than my first time. Purposely, I did not weigh myself at the beginning, because I didn't want to base my success on how many lbs. I lost, but on how healthy I felt..and I feel good and like I lost a few lbs., which is great. I'm sure the combination of doing the cleanse and doing the 30 day shred every day has helped.... Would love to get back to how I felt 3 years ago, but I'm pretty happy with where I'm at right now.
*another side note*
went to a show at the Flying M last night..my friends are in a band called Mickey the Jump.... and they blow me away every time I see them...seriously, the passion and excitement that they play with is infectious. I'm so proud of them........such talent, such great sound, man....I hope they get to play music like this forever. Following them up at the show was Wye Oak. Incredible band from Baltimore...do yourself a favor and get one of their albums.
loves-a.
Been thinking about people in my life that I feel like I've never had as much time with as I wanted....
Evan and Nancy
Jordan and Bethany
Marty and Becky
Jeff and Melani
Mel and Tysen
Nina and Kenny
Jordan C.
those are the people back "home" that have really been on my mind & in my heart lately... It's just strange that all these people, I haven't spent much of life with (except for a couple of you :)... yet, I feel the biggest connection to them, more than any friends I've ever had. Maybe it's the whole "you always want what you can't have" thing.... well, regardless, I miss them and wish they could all come over for dinner tonight.
*on a side note*
today is the last day of the Master Cleanse for me! SO excited to be able to cook and eat again. I feel good though, I must say, better than my first time. Purposely, I did not weigh myself at the beginning, because I didn't want to base my success on how many lbs. I lost, but on how healthy I felt..and I feel good and like I lost a few lbs., which is great. I'm sure the combination of doing the cleanse and doing the 30 day shred every day has helped.... Would love to get back to how I felt 3 years ago, but I'm pretty happy with where I'm at right now.
*another side note*
went to a show at the Flying M last night..my friends are in a band called Mickey the Jump.... and they blow me away every time I see them...seriously, the passion and excitement that they play with is infectious. I'm so proud of them........such talent, such great sound, man....I hope they get to play music like this forever. Following them up at the show was Wye Oak. Incredible band from Baltimore...do yourself a favor and get one of their albums.
loves-a.
Monday, October 18, 2010
10.18.10
4 months ago, Jeremy and I drove away from a place I called home for 25 years of my life, Redding. Through the north eastern corner of California, through the barren eastern Oregon, and finally landed in the Treasure Valley, Nampa, Idaho. It's been a good, strange, hard, joyful, tearful, inspiring 4 months to say the least.
2 months ago, I started a new job using my degree as a PSR worker (psychosocial rehabilitationist). This was a big step for me, as many of you know, I was a loyal worker at Sunset Market for the past 10 years it seems. It's been good, strange, hard, joyful, tearful, inspiring 2 months to say the least.
4 days ago, I started the Master Cleanse for the second time around. My caffeine withdrawal headache only lasted for Day 1, unlike last time till Day 3, maybe I'm not drinking as much coffee as I used to. The saltwater in the morning is still gross, but I drink it with ease, all at one, unlike last time.
3 days ago, I started the "30 day shred" dvd by Jillian from Biggest Loser. Man, it's so hard to stick with her for 20 minutes, especially, since I cannot recall the last time I worked out. But I'm excited to be in shape, to lose my pooch, and to look like a smokin' hot wife for Jeremy when he comes home in November.
Yesterday...I had a rough morning. Not sure if it's partly because of when you detox, you typically become more emotional.... but, I was "homesick" like crazy. All I wanted to do was go pick up my sister and drive up to see our Mom and Dad. It didn't help that Jeremy wasn't home to comfort me...and that was another part of it, I just wanted him to be home with me. This is the farthest I've lived from my family, and I think it finally hit me how much I missed being around them. After spending last weekend with them camping in the mountains, fishing at Eagle Lake, sitting around my parents house chit-chatting, I really really missed them. And I knew it was bound to hit me sooner or later..I just wasn't expecting it to leave me teary-eyed for most of the day.
Today...I'm going to practice crocheting, I'm determined to learn this craft! Go to the library and check out some new books. Work with 1 client this afternoon (wish it was more..but nobody called me back today to confirm appts! grrrr). Watch some silly tv shows with Kaysha tonight as we drink our yummy lemonade and laxative tea (ha!).
I love you all... God is so good, all the time.
xo-a.
2 months ago, I started a new job using my degree as a PSR worker (psychosocial rehabilitationist). This was a big step for me, as many of you know, I was a loyal worker at Sunset Market for the past 10 years it seems. It's been good, strange, hard, joyful, tearful, inspiring 2 months to say the least.
4 days ago, I started the Master Cleanse for the second time around. My caffeine withdrawal headache only lasted for Day 1, unlike last time till Day 3, maybe I'm not drinking as much coffee as I used to. The saltwater in the morning is still gross, but I drink it with ease, all at one, unlike last time.
3 days ago, I started the "30 day shred" dvd by Jillian from Biggest Loser. Man, it's so hard to stick with her for 20 minutes, especially, since I cannot recall the last time I worked out. But I'm excited to be in shape, to lose my pooch, and to look like a smokin' hot wife for Jeremy when he comes home in November.
Yesterday...I had a rough morning. Not sure if it's partly because of when you detox, you typically become more emotional.... but, I was "homesick" like crazy. All I wanted to do was go pick up my sister and drive up to see our Mom and Dad. It didn't help that Jeremy wasn't home to comfort me...and that was another part of it, I just wanted him to be home with me. This is the farthest I've lived from my family, and I think it finally hit me how much I missed being around them. After spending last weekend with them camping in the mountains, fishing at Eagle Lake, sitting around my parents house chit-chatting, I really really missed them. And I knew it was bound to hit me sooner or later..I just wasn't expecting it to leave me teary-eyed for most of the day.
Today...I'm going to practice crocheting, I'm determined to learn this craft! Go to the library and check out some new books. Work with 1 client this afternoon (wish it was more..but nobody called me back today to confirm appts! grrrr). Watch some silly tv shows with Kaysha tonight as we drink our yummy lemonade and laxative tea (ha!).
I love you all... God is so good, all the time.
xo-a.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
10.17.10
Been having some quiet time this morning, just me and my Jesus. . .
this song explains my heart right now.
"All my Devotion"-Kristene Mueller
Beautiful Man,
Beautiful God,
You're more than worth my time.
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
Left unfulfilled,
Just for a time.
Beautiful Man,
Beautiful God,
You're more than worth my time.
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
Left unfulfilled,
Just for a time.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
Beautiful Man,
Beautiful God,
You're more than worth my time.
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
Left unfulfilled,
Just for a time.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
Take it all,
Take it all,
Just give me Jesus,
Just give me Jesus.
Take it all,
Take it all,
Just give me Jesus,
Just give me Jesus.
I don't want any other lovers,
I don't want any other lovers,
I don't want any other lovers,
I don't want any other lovers,
For all my devotion belongs to this Man,
All my devotion belongs to this Man,
All my devotion belongs to this Man,
All my devotion belongs to this Man.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
this song explains my heart right now.
"All my Devotion"-Kristene Mueller
Beautiful Man,
Beautiful God,
You're more than worth my time.
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
Left unfulfilled,
Just for a time.
Beautiful Man,
Beautiful God,
You're more than worth my time.
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
Left unfulfilled,
Just for a time.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
Beautiful Man,
Beautiful God,
You're more than worth my time.
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
Left unfulfilled,
Just for a time.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
Take it all,
Take it all,
Just give me Jesus,
Just give me Jesus.
Take it all,
Take it all,
Just give me Jesus,
Just give me Jesus.
I don't want any other lovers,
I don't want any other lovers,
I don't want any other lovers,
I don't want any other lovers,
For all my devotion belongs to this Man,
All my devotion belongs to this Man,
All my devotion belongs to this Man,
All my devotion belongs to this Man.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
And I know You don't come as easy as some,
But I will watch and pray,
I will watch and pray.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
10.16.10
God is good beyond words......
that's it....
I could write a whole blog about just how good He is...
and how real He is
and how big He is
and how loving He is
and how gracious He is
but I'll just leave it at this..
God is good beyond words.
loves-a.
that's it....
I could write a whole blog about just how good He is...
and how real He is
and how big He is
and how loving He is
and how gracious He is
but I'll just leave it at this..
God is good beyond words.
loves-a.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
10.14.10
What a day...
woke up to check our bank account to find that Jeremy's last check from work bounced. *sigh* ... I was stressed & worried in an instant...but then had to remind myself that those things are not of God...I'm feeling much better now...after some prayer and some reminders from some dear friends of mine....
in brighter news...
I start the Master Cleanse tomorrow (2nd time doing it!) and am excited about the whole process, as this time I have 2 friends, Chad and Kaysha, that are committing to the 10 day cleanse with me. I think this will make it easier on me--although, last time, I did have to test my strength and cook for Jeremy 2 out of my 10 days...silly me.
as part of a mental/spiritual cleanse....I've decided to sell my iPhone (for financial reasons too)... I've been thinking alot about how much time I waste on that silly phone...and all the silly apps that I use every day. That phone has just made me lazy I think. Sure, I'll miss being able to play Wordswithfriends...and some of the other silly games... and you wonder how I'll get to where I'm going without my Maps app? I plan on actually using real paper maps to navigate my way when I'm on trips!! What a crazy idea, eh? And then I won't be checking my face book all the time, or reading every email I get throughout the day as soon as I get it... I'm looking forward to just being able to actually be where I am, instead of having this little computer with me. Technology, is not all it's cracked up to be, in my opinion. I just want a phone that can call people, text, and maybe take pictures...do they even make those anymore??
anyway.... today is day 2 of being home with Jeremy officially out on tour..and I miss him terribly. I thought it might be easier, since we've done this twice before..but I think that since I love him even more than I did back then--that's why it's hard. But I'm blessed up here--surrounded by great people that make sure I'm not just sitting at home feeling sorry for myself.
oohh---forgot to mention that I was camping in California with my fam this weekend! We had SOOOOOO much fun, but I'll save that for another post, when I get the pictures.
loves-a.
woke up to check our bank account to find that Jeremy's last check from work bounced. *sigh* ... I was stressed & worried in an instant...but then had to remind myself that those things are not of God...I'm feeling much better now...after some prayer and some reminders from some dear friends of mine....
in brighter news...
I start the Master Cleanse tomorrow (2nd time doing it!) and am excited about the whole process, as this time I have 2 friends, Chad and Kaysha, that are committing to the 10 day cleanse with me. I think this will make it easier on me--although, last time, I did have to test my strength and cook for Jeremy 2 out of my 10 days...silly me.
as part of a mental/spiritual cleanse....I've decided to sell my iPhone (for financial reasons too)... I've been thinking alot about how much time I waste on that silly phone...and all the silly apps that I use every day. That phone has just made me lazy I think. Sure, I'll miss being able to play Wordswithfriends...and some of the other silly games... and you wonder how I'll get to where I'm going without my Maps app? I plan on actually using real paper maps to navigate my way when I'm on trips!! What a crazy idea, eh? And then I won't be checking my face book all the time, or reading every email I get throughout the day as soon as I get it... I'm looking forward to just being able to actually be where I am, instead of having this little computer with me. Technology, is not all it's cracked up to be, in my opinion. I just want a phone that can call people, text, and maybe take pictures...do they even make those anymore??
anyway.... today is day 2 of being home with Jeremy officially out on tour..and I miss him terribly. I thought it might be easier, since we've done this twice before..but I think that since I love him even more than I did back then--that's why it's hard. But I'm blessed up here--surrounded by great people that make sure I'm not just sitting at home feeling sorry for myself.
oohh---forgot to mention that I was camping in California with my fam this weekend! We had SOOOOOO much fun, but I'll save that for another post, when I get the pictures.
loves-a.