you've got the whole world......... in your hands.

tonight was good for me. God really spoke through Nathan tonight... in incredible ways. I can't even explain it...but I am pumped. pumped about the dreams God has given me. pumped about the passions He has blessed me with. pumped about the amazing life He has given me with Jeremy. seriously- I am SO blessed. I have been selfish for too long with my life-its RIDICULOUS! we have so much, yet we're always feeling like God hasn't given us as much as the next person. but why would He give us more if we don't do anything with all that He's blessed us with. . . Jeremy and I have talked about when we have a house and a family how we want it to be a place anybody can drop by and we'll feed them, give them a place to rest, a place to shower-whatever. but i want that RIGHT now. I love to give. I love to take care of people. I'm excited about how God is going to use this passion in our lives....
Dan really spoke to me too...well, it was in the form of a flashback. Circa 1999 & 2000 when Dan was in a band called Ember. it was the time of my life that my friends and i went and rocked out to bands like Wistletoe, BuckarooBandits, Sinner Fiend, the Jeremy Project..... and then there was Ember. Whenever Ember took the stage, we all waited in anticipation for God's presence. Dan, I'm real glad you didn't become a professional baseball player-because Redding never would've been blessed with your talented voice and guitar. I think back-all of us hardcore kids, looking all cool, totally all out worshipping when "take everything" came on. I actually just came home from church and listened to it. still has the same power as it did almost 10 years ago. incredible.
isn't it crazy how we think we're not worthy enough to have an impact? or that no one will notice our little life? God says to us, "I gave you this life. You ARE worthy of all that it entails."

"and I long to feel the hands of God on me. Shape me on Your table until I look a little more like you. .................. You are the Potter and I am the clay, in Your hands. No matter how far I run from You, no matter how long I hide. I long to run with You through of fields of gold. Just to feel You, Just to feel You, Just to feel You breathe on me................ You are the Potter and I am the clay. Jesus I surrender. Give You everything.........I will lift my song I will lift my voice I will lift my hands... give You everything. . . .......take everything, Lord...take everything... I'm Yours......." (a little lyric love by Dan Lance... if you are so lucky to have a copy of this EP, put this song on... and just listen.)